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Gestational Awareness August 7, 2012

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As I feel the pressure build up and pain ensues all I can focus on is the well being and comfort of the one within. Never mind my state of being, I know I will survive and brave this moment. But the one within; are they in distress, are they hurt or cramped, are they feeling ok?

I can tell the time is near when things that are, will be no more and a new reality will take over…several new realities. I know the death of who I am must occur as the surrendering to openness takes place for delivery. I do not fear this change but welcome it with open arms, mind, and most importantly heart.

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Email Anyone? September 27, 2011

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I like to keep important things and being a mom of two with a smartphone has proved extremely useful in keeping up to date with what’s in my inbox. I can see what comes in and decide if it needs my attention immediately or at a later, more convenient date.  But when my husband questioned why I have SO many emails I brushed it off and said, “I haven’t taken the time to clean out my inbox.”

Ok, so over 12,000 emails in an inbox may be a bit excessive, but after all what good is unlimited storage space if you don’t use it, right?!

I’ve decided to take the time to clean out the inbox and before I left on my current trip I unsubscribed to some daily and weekly updates because I knew they wouldn’t prove useful on my jaunt out of town.  It was a good thing that I did.  As I began this time consuming task, I questioned myself:

  • Are all these notices really necessary?
  • What am I loosing out on if I don’t have this update in my life?
  • Do I really need to be consumption focused?
  • Is today’s daily deal from different locations really that important in my family’s life?
  • Is this sense of “urgency” warranted or prescribed?
  • Have I chosen to participate in the dictation of what’s most important?

More than 12,000 emails in one inbox. Ninety percent of what I failed to clean out in a timely manner is obsolete, outdated, over emphasized information.

Waiting For Daddy To Come Home May 23, 2010

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I read an email today sent by one of the “mothers” from my church entitled, “Waiting for daddy to come home.”  I saw two girls waiting while the dog laid on it’s back. I advanced the scroll bar south, more dog and girls in pink, then, arms up and open.   The next frame showed the youngest of the two in a runner’s still frame arms wide and outstretched now. The next frame, the President getting ready to receive his daughter in a fatherly elevation into his arms.  They embrace while he holds her.

In these snapshots the obvious transcends to the background (the President and his two daughters).  I could only think what that my sons father is missing out on.  Will he ever understand or know the joy, exhilaration, and love in a moment like that?  Will he fully appreciate the gift of fatherhood and the command he’s been called to by being a dad?  I know what it feels like (being a mom) when I return home from working all week to spend the weekend with our sons.  It’s one of the greatest feelings in the world.  Pure, unadulterated, authentic, organic love.

Mama! August 20, 2008

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I cannot express how fantastic, wonderful, awesome, a pleasure, a blessing, a privilege it is to be a mother to my two boys.  (I say my but I know I don’t own them, I am only their steward while we are all here on Earth.)  It’s an awesome fact to know that I along with so many others are connected by a common bond of motherhood. 

The day a woman gives birth, 300,000 women around the world will be giving birth too, that is so empowering! (That statistic came from Birthing From Within, by Pam England and Dr. Rob Horowitz.)

24 HOURS CONTINUED August 2, 2008

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There are only 24 hours in a day, but how does one bend the constrains of time…or am I doing “too much” with my current scope of responsibility? I’m a full-time worker, spouse, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, cook, housekeeper (sometimes), buyer, launderer, storyteller, business woman, solider, disciple, writer, reader, artist, meditator… How do I give attention to 90% of these items everyday or at least within one week, every week? Monday-Friday I work approx. 11 hours. I sleep approx. 6 hours (all interrupted). Seven hours each day during the week to try to work in the items above. On Saturday and Sunday, the Sabbath is kept holy and I try to catch up on some sleep.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not a novice when it comes to getting things done. I spent the last ten years being an over achiever. Now I’m coming off of my annal high horse. I know all about prioritizing, setting goals, being flexible, going with the flow, etc, etc.

I guess all I’m saying… I have the same 24 hours as Benjamin Franklin… He achieved great things and I can still achieve great things, it just might take more time than I’d like (ego talking) to see them come to fruition.

I’m always open to listen so if you know of some method of “getting things done” that I don’t feel free to post it here.

24 HOURS August 2, 2008

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As my exciting life unfolds (upcoming marriage, relocation, income supplementation, growing family, evolving self) I find myself running into the same dilemma I did when I was a younger girl. How do I accomplish everything I want to do within the constrains of a day or a week?!?

The words of my mother echo in my ears, as they are retrieved from the files of my mind, “You have the same 24 hours as Benjamin Franklin did.” So simple, so sweet, so surreal, and all too true.

Increasing Love June 25, 2008

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Until you have children you never really realize how deep a capacity to love is humanly possible. I have two wondrous boys, an infant and a toddler who is quickly growing into an adolescent. Each day, in every smile, and through every word of love, these two boys increase the love I have for them. It’s absolutely amazing. I think that by allowing myself to be open to be the mother I need to be and grow in love for these children this increase of love is spilling over to the growing love I have for my husband. It’s a beautiful thing when you wake up or find something new to love a person for. To be truly grateful and honor your spouse is a treasure in itself.

Simply Amazing!

Check out 1Corinthians13:13.

My One IS One February 13, 2006

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Sunday, February 12th, marked my son’s first birthday by traditional standards. I like to mark the date of conception as the beginning of his life (in May he’ll be two years old). Today I thought back to this day one year ago and the events that lead to his birth. My water broke two days prior to his travel down the birth canal. I remember having to rent a breast pump on the twelth to start my contractions (all I thought I was having were “Braxton Hicks”). I wanted to leave my house soooo bad and be at the birthing center with my midwife, yet she told me to hold on. I wasn’t ready yet to make that trip.

In the late afternoon my friend and I went for a walk. By time we finished it was almost time to travel to the birthing center. The truck ride was the worst. There is nothing more uncomfortable than going through contractions in a confined space that you can’t really move around in. About an hour after we arrived (my friend and I) a son was born. Healthy and with rich lips, that was the first thing I noticed about him. The midwife had to ask me what sex the baby was. I was so in the moment, the sex of the child didn’t matter. God brought me into motherhood with a healthy infant in my arms. I was excited, overwhelmed, and thankful. God entrusted me with Aaron.