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What am I doing with it? July 27, 2011

Posted by solrai in Current, Lord Help Me.
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In a downward dog position this evening I look at my thighs who are closely hugging each other.  I contemplate, “look at this body I’ve been given…what am I doing with it?”  I think about the things that have been planted inside me, the talents and gifts and I ask, “What am I doing with it… with all of them?”

In a world of uncertainty where tomorrow is a probability and not a promise, the actions and movements of today seem to demand more meaning and thought behind them.  A conscious breathing, living being, aware, awake, and engaging.  I have to admit, I have been victim to haphazard muddling around life, allowing the moment to carry me from one place to another only to look back at the end of the day and ask, “where has my day gone?”  It was given over to circumstance and strummed to the tune of another’s song; I was merely harmony, a back-up singer.

So the question plagues me again, What am I doing with this life I’ve been given???

How is my tomorrow going to be different from today?

How am I going to stand in opposition to “myself”?

How am I going to attack with a passionate fervor?

How am I going to be uncompromising to that which means the most to me?

Wish me luck!




24 HOURS CONTINUED August 2, 2008

Posted by solrai in Current, Mama's Life.
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There are only 24 hours in a day, but how does one bend the constrains of time…or am I doing “too much” with my current scope of responsibility? I’m a full-time worker, spouse, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, cook, housekeeper (sometimes), buyer, launderer, storyteller, business woman, solider, disciple, writer, reader, artist, meditator… How do I give attention to 90% of these items everyday or at least within one week, every week? Monday-Friday I work approx. 11 hours. I sleep approx. 6 hours (all interrupted). Seven hours each day during the week to try to work in the items above. On Saturday and Sunday, the Sabbath is kept holy and I try to catch up on some sleep.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not a novice when it comes to getting things done. I spent the last ten years being an over achiever. Now I’m coming off of my annal high horse. I know all about prioritizing, setting goals, being flexible, going with the flow, etc, etc.

I guess all I’m saying… I have the same 24 hours as Benjamin Franklin… He achieved great things and I can still achieve great things, it just might take more time than I’d like (ego talking) to see them come to fruition.

I’m always open to listen so if you know of some method of “getting things done” that I don’t feel free to post it here.